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Name: Mark
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Tulsa
Birthday: 2/23/1979
Gender: Male


Occupation: Artist
Industry: Media


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Member Since: 10/9/2005

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Sunday, March 12, 2006

Currently Listening
In a Space Outta Sound
By Nightmares on Wax
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Yeah, life is funny. I guess it all boils down to what we make of it.


Sunday, January 08, 2006

Currently Listening
Suzuki
By Tosca
the whole damn CD is good, check it out.
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just writing to say i have nothing to write. Actually, I have plenty to write about, just too many things to put into a post just yet. Hopefully, I'll get my head together soon and have something of interest to put up here. Until then, well, this is all ya get.


Make your mark, make it broad.
Communicate through everything.


Monday, November 21, 2005

Currently Listening
Wide Angle
By Hybrid
FINISHED SYMPHONY
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Volition Summoned

yeah, so I analyze things way too much. What can I say, everything in my life has brought me to a point where I can look back and see that every mistake I've made was caused from not thinking enough about something before I made a decision. Everyone I've ever met has told me that I see the world through my heart and not my head, and I have to completely agree. Therefore, from time to time, I've made mistakes, I've gone down the wrong side of a fork in the road, I've let time expire on certain decisions, or I've just plain been an idiot.  All that led up to a year long breakdown which lasted until a few months after my 23rd birthday. Unfortunately, it took me another year or so to realize what had caused that breakdown. I believe it was caused from using my heart instead of my head.

So now I think a lot. I analyze everything. Not because I want to, but because I have to in order to survive. In fact, I've been analyzing everything for so long it has become a habit that now even haunts me in the hours when I should be sleeping. When I'm able to sleep, my dreams are affected by this habit as well. So, has my habit kept me from all those consequences of heart-made decisions? Well, up until a few months ago, not very successfully. Granted,
I was doing much better, but I was going insane.

The past few months, however, have been a very enlightening time in my life. I've come to realize that it isn't just about heart vs head, but that it's about a lot of different internal receptors; each one assisting the other in order to produce healthy and effective results. I erroneously focused all my energies on merely "thinking" and "analyzing" without paying much caution to "feeling" and "instinct." I have come to realize the importance of focusing energies on both. Both are tools we are all supposed to use.

I don't regret almost driving myself insane by over analyzing everything. In fact, I feel it is what helped me take a crash course in getting my mind up and running at the same pace my heart is running. I plan to use them both at their full potential from now on. I also plan to explore the other internal receptors that I've been discovering recently. I'm looking forward to a peaceful rest tonight. Although, I know it will take a while for me to completely break the over analyzing habit. And I'm sure that there will always be people that I run into in life that perceive me as someone who analyzes things too much, but ya know, there's a culturally and religiously transcendent concept out there that goes something like this: "seek and you will find" and as far as I'm concerned, I will always be seeking! However, now I understand the importance of not basing my reality on how
just one internal receptor perceives that reality to be.

AHH, light at the end of the tunnel!



My next post will be about my affinity for symbolism in which I'll shed some light on my November 1st post and if, I can find a way to fit it in, I'll explain a bit about my current profile pic



Make your mark, make it broad.
Communicate through everything.


Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Currently Listening
Felt Mountain
By Goldfrapp
Utopia
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astrology is a very interesting thing. I'm not saying I buy into all the mythological aspects of it, but I definetly believe that the stars, planets, moon, etc have a big role on the human psyche just as the moon plays a role in the rise and fall of the tide. I've been reading a bit about astrology and what it has to say about me. To my surprise, it seems to be pretty right on. I recently read something on astrology.com about aquarius/pisces cusps (which is what astrology categorizes me as). I was shocked to see how right on it was. So, if you're curious about who and how I am, please read the following. It has helped me gain some direction in life by encouraging me to own who I am.

Aquarius/Pisces
February 19 to February 23

Aquarius is the 11th sign of the Zodiac. Aquarians are humanitarians and philanthropists, the visionaries of the zodiac. Aquarians value friendship and often have many acquaintances in addition to their close friends. Pisces is the 12th and final sign of the Zodiac. All that is learned by the first 11 signs comes together to help Pisces reach the pinnacle of their potential. Aquarius/Pisces are selfless and spiritual, often strongly intuitive and receptive to the collective unconscious.

The astrological symbol of Aquarius is the Water Bearer. The astrological symbol of Pisces is the Pair of Fish. Those born on the Aquarius/Pisces cusp reflect the dual nature of life, reality and nonreality, consciousness and the unconscious. They represent consciousness through the flowing of ideas. They work hard to bring their ideas to fruition, stubbornly refusing to give up their causes. In this way, the Fixed Quality of Aquarius is the Fixed exemplified. However, the Mutable Quality of Pisces shows itself equally by deeming these individuals as people without a strong agenda; they tend to go with the flow and move where life takes them. They are peace loving and friendly, and are the chameleons of the Zodiac, receptive to the needs of others but sometimes getting lost themselves.

Aquarius is ruled by the planets Uranus and Saturn. In ancient Roman mythology, Saturn (and his Greek equivalent, Cronus) was the father of many gods, including Zeus. Uranus, the oldest god, was associated with Earth. When the planet Uranus was discovered, astrologers assigned it as the modern ruler of Aquarius. It is from this planet that Aquarians receive their visionary nature. Uranus is associated with progress and technology -- anything that is radical -- and it rules electricity and astrology.

Pisces is ruled by the planets Jupiter and Neptune. In ancient Roman mythology, Jupiter (and his Greek equivalent, Zeus) was the king of the gods. Neptune (and his Greek equivalent, Poseidon) was the god of the sea. When the planet Neptune was discovered, modern astrologers assigned it to be the ruler of Pisces. Neptune is about everything that isn't quite real: illusion and disillusionment, fantasy, drama and art, and spirituality. All of these are important to those born under Pisces. Aquarius/Pisces tend to be strongly spiritual (not necessarily religious) and artistic. They are idealistic, but sometimes their dreams are vague and impractical. When reality intrudes, they can become pessimistic or lethargic, but they are very adaptive and broad-minded, so they can rework their ideals when necessary.

The element associated with Aquarius is Air. Air Signs are intellectual, and they tend to respond to the world through intellect, rather than physical action or practicality. The element associated with Pisces is Water. Because Water Signs are emotional, they tend to respond to the world through emotion. Aquarius/Pisces are tolerant and open-minded, but tend to stick to their beliefs. They are compassionate, sensitive, imaginative and sympathetic to the feelings of others. They tend to be romantic and sentimental, but they may give in to escapism. They are devoted to their goals, but they can be disorganized or procrastinate when faced with difficulties. Their intellect makes them logical and self-confident, but it may also makes them aloof from people around them. They are original, offbeat and even eccentric, but they are also rather bored by detail. Reformist and experimental, Aquarius/Pisces may seem cold toward people who don't share their intellectual orientation to life. Those born on the Aquarius/Pisces cusp may become timid if their emotions are abused too often.

Aquarius/Pisces are often multitalented, both in scientific and creative endeavors. They are unique and rebellious people who are driven to change the world. However, they can be shy, quiet and sometimes elusive, refusing to show their true selves. They are modest and thoughtful, sometimes displaying remarkable musical talent. Their freedom is important to them, and they are often driven to help others become free, as well.

In their leisure time, Aquarius/Pisces are social animals. They may work to alleviate their emotional stress through contact with others and exercise. They greatly prefer team sports to solitary athletics, and they often have a fondness for swimming or water polo. In love relationships, Aquarius/Pisces is flirtatious, caring and romantic. Aquarius rules the ankles. People born under Aquarius may be more susceptible to sprains than those of other signs. Aquarius's colors are the colors of the water they carry: turquoise, aqua and silver.

The great strength of the Aquarius/Pisces is in their visionary nature and their compassion. They are the people who take the world to the next level; they make others see things in a new light. Their ability to break the rules and help others reach their fullest potential makes them one of the most understanding characters of the zodiac.



Make your mark, make it broad.
Communicate through everything.


Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Currently Listening
Simple Things
By Zero 7
(the cd is on repeat)
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well, I've been blindfolded, hogtied, gagged, beaten and thrown in the trunk of this car that seems to be heading down a rugged trail straight for the edge of a cliff. As I bounce maliciously around the interior of this trunk, I can't help but wonder when the last time this car's shocks were replaced and I'm expecting the wheels to rip off of the axles any moment now.

Surprisingly enough, one finds a lot of time to think about a lot of things when one finds himself in this awkward situation. How'd I get here? How much longer do I have to stay? What's the likelihood that the next turbulent bump will catapult me against the jagged inside of the trunk door again but with enough force to pop it open and throw me from this violent ride, hopefully, without killing me in the process? Should I keep longing for the moment in which the ride becomes smooth, or should I dread that moment realizing that the smoothness I would have hoped for would, in fact, just be evidence of this car having reached the edge of that cliff? Will I miss those vehement ups and downs that once thrashed me all around the bowels of this bat out of hell, or will I graciously embrace my peaceful descent despite my assumptions of what would be, inevitably, coming next?

Introspectively I postulate that, while this journey malleates my will into submission,
Inescapably I'll gravitate toward my predestined counterweight and summon my volition.

...too be continued.


Make your mark, make it broad.
Communicate through everything.



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